It’s ok to be an introvert and enjoy your free time in silence. It’s not ok to stop your life and wait for change. Nothing will change unless you make the effort. Some of us are blessed to have supporters that understand our struggles. Or supporters that don’t understand but are still present. Many of us are completely alone. Whether we are a one person army or backed by a family of soldiers, the only one with the power to make us feel better would be ourselves. I’m sure you’ve all heard many of times “ we are our worst enemy.” So much truth to that.
I was blessed to spend a week as well as Halloween with my mother and she pushed me to get some things in motion, and God Bless her for taking a long flight from NY to AZ to spend most of her days helping me get my affairs together. Amazing she is and I’m so grateful for that support. Yet, I had to make the conscious decision and effort and I truly pushed myself that week. It wasn’t easy but necessary if I want to move ahead in life.
She’s back in NY, although I’m hoping she’ll come back very soon. Good news, after six months here, I’m going back to work Monday. I’m actually excited to meet some people and to get on schedule. Have a set routine and a gosh darn purpose.
I often have to pace myself in order to get things done…a trip to the post office and Walmart and I’m beat. Yet even pacing myself to achieve what needs to get done proved to be a huge stress reliever. The worst you and I can do is sit home waiting for this magic spark or rev that’s going to get us going. Because we all know that never comes for us. I just urge you to try and set a goal daily. Mine probably seem super minimal, like making a phone call about my retirement fund. One small task a day, by the end of the week I was feeling pretty good. I feel for the first time in months as though I have a handle on things and I’m ready to enter the workforce again. Plan to go in with a positive attitude and pleasant, just myself. And pray to God I don’t come across anyone remotely close to the tyrant I dealt with the just few years with a former employer. Honestly, I don’t think it’s possible to come across anyone like that, this world couldn’t handle another tyrant like that.
I’m ready for some change and understand that it won’t happen until I initiate it. I look forward to fostering new friendships and working as a team. If course there’s always the exception, but wow, Tucsonians are some amazingly genuine people. I don’t think I could have picked a better place. So wish me luck and I’ll be sure to post soon with an update!